I wish the early part of today never happened. What do you do when someone wrongs you? I’m trying to step back and grasp the situation with a different person’s point of view but any way I look at it, I was verbally harassed by my accountant. Big time.

My thoughts consumes me. When I came home mid afternoon I spent every effort to forget about the incident and tried to focus my good energy on my kids. I took the kids and the nanny out for some cupcakes in Englewood. But even those sumptuous looking cupcakes didn’t wet my appetite. I couldn’t eat. All I had today was some coffee and Chloe’s left over sandwich.

This blog is about my wonderful kids. When they are old enough to read this, I want them to know how much they were loved from the very beginning. I thought about whether or not I should post what had happened to me today, if it was appropriate…. and I thought maybe they should know what kind of person their mother was, right now, trying to cope with pain and anger. Or at least know how my each actions and thoughts have THEM in it. I want to be a good person for them… I want to be a good example. I want them to know me as a Godly woman, though I fail all the time, I try..

I’m confused as to what would be the wisest thing to do as a Christian and what God wants me to do right now . What would Jesus do? Andrew asked me that last night before I walked into the lion’s den alone and was torn into pieces verbally and emotionally with no witness around. What IS the right thing to do? That my God would be proud of me and my kids will someday be proud of? I don’t have a clue. To be honest, I can’t even seem to finish one prayer all day. I begin by calling out to God but my thoughts and anger wraps me around, and I am lost.

Such a long prelude… but that’s all I’m going to post right now. Before I act on my thoughts and try to seek my justice, I am trying to submit myself to the Lord first… though it’s hard

Jennifer, our new nanny that started this week, Chloe LOVES LOVES !

I saw Jennifer disciplining Chloe very calmly right before my eyes WHILE having conversation with me!  I was impressed.  She’s all about teaching and doing projects with the kids and we feel very very lucky to have her. We are blessed with such wonderful people watching our kids!!

This morning we drove to Madison area to find a cool park and ended up in Watchung Reservation park. What a beautiful park with big open areas to run around with a soccer ball. A great place to go with family & friends and picnic.

I’ve been busy with work this week and this morning I left the house at 6 am to go to work and didn’t return until 6:30 pm, which means I got hang out with Shane in the morning because he wakes up super early but I didn’t get to see Ms. Chloe all day. So after putting Shane down for the night, I took Chloe out for a little quality time. We went to Crewcuts in River Side and bought a couple of shirts and hairbands for Chloe, then we went to the Cheese Cake factory for dinner. The place was packed and we couldn’t get a table right away and of course, Chloe saw big cheese cakes while waiting, so I decided to take a slice to go. We set down at one of those comfy chairs in the mall and had mozzarella sandwich and also had the piece of strawberry cheese cake for dessert. I have to say Chloe behaved very well throughout the night. When we went into stores, she pointed out different things and named each of them like, pink boots! pretty necklace! oh so pretty bag! this is mommy’s dress! oh i want this shoes, etc… She was so excited that she got to see so many pretty things but did not once try to take them. We also went on the escalators SIX times and she would scream with excitement every time she got on which drew other people’s attention. Some parents gave me ‘i understand…how cute…’ smiles.

We were having so much fun that I lost track of the time and we ended up coming home around 9:30 pm which is way past her bed time. When I got into the car and checked my cell phone I had 12 missed calls from home. Andrew on the other hand was worried sick at home because he thought Chloe and I went for a walk and did not know where we were. So I told Chloe to tell dad not to be mad when we got home. She gave me the ‘don’t worry mom, I got this one’ nod. Amazingly enough, as soon as Andrew opened the door Chloe went, "Daddy, don’t be mad, we are home now." with a huge smile and hug… I was SO impressed and very proud… 🙂