I had the honor of attending a black tie event called Dream Ball with my coworkers last night, sponsored by P&G to benefit The Look Good… Feel Better®, program of the Personal care Products Council foundation and the American Cancer Society.

I came home from work today and Jennifer had some surprise pictures for me. My boy took his first steps!!

Yeah!!! Looks like he even knew he had accomplished something and was proud of himself too.

In my opinion, this is the best Thai restaurant in NJ. 

From our garden… finally.

These flowers made my day. Thanks team!

I wish the early part of today never happened. What do you do when someone wrongs you? I’m trying to step back and grasp the situation with a different person’s point of view but any way I look at it, I was verbally harassed by my accountant. Big time.

My thoughts consumes me. When I came home mid afternoon I spent every effort to forget about the incident and tried to focus my good energy on my kids. I took the kids and the nanny out for some cupcakes in Englewood. But even those sumptuous looking cupcakes didn’t wet my appetite. I couldn’t eat. All I had today was some coffee and Chloe’s left over sandwich.

This blog is about my wonderful kids. When they are old enough to read this, I want them to know how much they were loved from the very beginning. I thought about whether or not I should post what had happened to me today, if it was appropriate…. and I thought maybe they should know what kind of person their mother was, right now, trying to cope with pain and anger. Or at least know how my each actions and thoughts have THEM in it. I want to be a good person for them… I want to be a good example. I want them to know me as a Godly woman, though I fail all the time, I try..

I’m confused as to what would be the wisest thing to do as a Christian and what God wants me to do right now . What would Jesus do? Andrew asked me that last night before I walked into the lion’s den alone and was torn into pieces verbally and emotionally with no witness around. What IS the right thing to do? That my God would be proud of me and my kids will someday be proud of? I don’t have a clue. To be honest, I can’t even seem to finish one prayer all day. I begin by calling out to God but my thoughts and anger wraps me around, and I am lost.

Such a long prelude… but that’s all I’m going to post right now. Before I act on my thoughts and try to seek my justice, I am trying to submit myself to the Lord first… though it’s hard