“We make God’s supernatural heart skip a beat.” is a quote from a book I’m reading titled Sacred Marriage by Gary Thomas.
Everytime I’m about to open the front door of our house anticipating to see my daugher, I feel the butterflies in my stomach. And when Chloe greets me with a huge smile, recognizing her mommy is home, my heart’s pounding hopelessly. When I read this book and came across the sentence, I was overwhelmed. How could it be? Me? I make God’s heart skip? What in the earth did I ever do to deserve that kind of love?
Then I began to think about Chloe. How much she means to me and how much I love her. My love for her took place in my heart before she was born. The moment I discovered that there was another heartbeat inside of me, that’s when it all happened. She was a part of my own existance and because I knew her from the very beginning, my love for her became absolute.
God has created me therefore He loves me. How simple and amazing that sounds… It’s the truth that I began to realize when I had Chloe. I can’t quite explain how that makes me feel. The language I am completely dependent for expressing my thoughts and feelings is incapable of conveying something I experience vividly but cannot put into words. Gratefulness fills my heart.
June 22nd, 2007 at 11:05 am
Hey Chloe, thanks… I’m glad to know that I, too make my parents’ heart skip a beat. Let’s get together soon!
July 26th, 2007 at 11:13 pm
beautiful. thanks for sharing, haewon! it truly is amazing how wide and deep our Creator’s love is for us. and i praise God that motherhood has given you a better glimpse of that.