We took him to see a pediatric cardiologist last week to get his heart checked out since there was an extremely small probability that there may have been a hole. He had to have an echo-cardiogram and the nurse had to put tapes all over his body, clipping several cables to them. It was very painful for me to watch but he held it in and was calm through most of the 25 min process…he took it like a champ. My mom and I were amazed at his boldness. We joked saying if Chloe had to ever go through this, the building would’ve exploded at the sound of her scream. 🙂 We are happy to report that his heart couldn’t be any healthier.
He has a brave heart!

My first purchase since Shane. I couldn’t wait to get my hands on these. They are from my favorite store Anthropologie.

Here’s the story about this teddy bear. When I moved to new york city after graduating college, I got a package from my parents in Korea. In the package, amongst my favorite snacks and food, there was this teddy bear. Okay, I know this may be silly, but when I was young, I had more than 70 stuffed animals. That’s how much I loved them. I confess I always slept with one and until… well recently when Chloe took this teddy from me. This teddy’s been through ups and downs with me since my single days in the city. I don’t know why but Chloe LOVES LOVES this teddy more than anything. We bought her so many other new ones but this is the one for her. She carries it everywhere she goes, sleeps with it, watches TV with it, dances with it…well, you get the point. Even when I dance with Chloe, she asks me to hold teddy while the two…rather three of us dance.

I’m very proud of Chloe for being so good with Shane. The first time she saw him at the hospital, she said “baby!” with such excitements and gave him a kiss on his forehead. I knew she would be great sister. So far, she has not exhibited any sense of jealousy (I’m knocking on the wood as I’m writing this.) My parents have been so wonderful with Chloe that she hasn’t minded my time with Shane. Chloe does get curious and wants to see and touch him, which we let her very carefully. The last week that Andrew was home with us was really great for Chloe. They got to really bond and spend a lot of quality time with each other. In fact, I was getting a little bit jealous that they were having too much fun. Chloe used to be a total mommy’s girl… Well, I guess I should get over that and be thankful that she’s adjusting super well.

And as for Shane…my precious baby Shane… already I can’t imagine my life without him.
Shane HaYoung Ryu
His name means, ‘Gracious God, may this child’s life bring glory and honor to you’.

It’s been a very emotional pregnancy as I faced several complications during the past 9 months. I had to have more doctor’s visits and ultrasounds than the first pregnancy with Chloe. I couldn’t share it with anyone without bursting into tears. First, it started out with my ovarian cyst that potentially interfered with the growth of the baby. Then it was a discolored spot in Shane’s heart during an ultrasound, which lead to a few more tests and required monitoring of his heart.
Every time I came out of the doctor’s visits, I called Andrew crying. Nothing was certain until the delivery of the baby. The only thing we could do was to just wait and pray to God for his healing if there was something wrong. Nine months was a long time to wait… Upon the delivery of Shane, I honestly didn’t even care about the pain. (okay, I had an epideral early on this time and it was only 6 minutes of pushing, if you have to ask). I kept praying to the Lord, “please God, please God…” during labor. When Shane was born, looking so beautiful and healthy, I broke into tears thanking God. I was very emotional and couldn’t hold my tears for a while. He was absolutely perfect. We praise the Lord for a safe delivery and a healthy baby…

This is what I was doing 6 hours before I went into labor.

Stay tuned for our new baby’s pictures!

Chloe’s walking away from the car again. She always tries to make a run for it.
Daddy got her!
Oops, we lost her again!
Here she is again.
Finally, some lunch at the park.

Chloe went the opposite direction of where we are going. Again!
Come back!!
Chloe loves to carry a bag and wear sunglasses.






Wait for me, grandpa!


Wow, it was a full day!